what have you made

I'm feeling a bit strange at the moment, my lovely cat Mortimer has gone missing, I've been looking through all my old photos of him and through my old life and I feel such a tremendous sense of loss.
There's so little I can do for him and it's infuriating, I can't help but feel I would give up everything to be sitting back on my bed again in the sun with him. I don't feel like myself anymore.